Solstice: an astronomical event that happens twice a year when the Sun's apparent position in the sky reaches its northernmost or southernmost extremes.
The Larson's went to the Planetarium at MSUM tonight and learned about the Summer Solstice along with why we have seasons and how each season changes the path of the sun as we see it, how the stars position differently in the sky based on what season it is, along with a little astronomy lesson. Parker and I really enjoyed it but the other too...well, not so much. It was interesting to find out that during the summer, from sunrise to sunset we have about 15 hours. In the winter from sunrise to sunset we have about 7 hours. WOW! And we wonder why we get so run down! Not only are we getting less than half of the hours of daylight, the sun is not high enough in the sky to make it warm either! It was a very interesting and fun lesson.
Another trip to the chiropractor for me today. As the day is coming to an end I am getting some pain back. I did run this morning though again and it felt SO good, even though with the morning fog I came home soaked! I can't think of a better way to start out the day! I just need to get back into my routine as it once was....
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Depression
Depression is defined as a mental disorder characterized by extreme gloom, feelings of inadequacy, and inability to concentrate.
Where have I been? I feel as though I have been falling into a deep, dark, black hole and cannot see the light to get out. I can't breathe and I feel as though it will never end and there is no way out.
After the Fargo Marathon this year, I was so disappointed in myself. I tried to put up a front that I would get over it and not everything goes right on the day you want it to. I feel as though I could pull out any excuse in the book, but it just comes down to the fact that I failed myself and I feel as if I failed Vicky. This race was about her and now I am still feeling selfish that I am still making it about me and the goal that I had set for myself that I didn't achieve. How ashamed am I? What could I have done differently? How much harder should I have trained? How many more miles a week should I have ran? Should I have done speed sessions and more tempo runs? The questions keep coming and coming without resolve...I digress....
A couple weeks ago I ran the Trail Run that was held at the Regional Science Center. I thought it would be a fun relaxing run as it was in the morning when the air is cool and crisp with a little bit of dew on the blades of grass. Deep breath and not even a hint of nervousness. As I line up with Jason I ask if he wants to run with me and the answer is no....Go! and the 10K has begun. I start out slow as I just wanted to take my time a little and have some fun, that and since it was a trail run, the terrain is obviously uneven and makes for an interesting race. My main focus at the start is to not turn an ankle! As I get out to the first clearing, I see Jason way out ahead of me and the competitiveness in me starts running faster. The sun is now out and it is getting really hot when in the open field. My pace increases. I go back into the woods and feel a chill as the temperature changes significantly. I'm sweating and have the goose bumps. I feel a rush of adrenaline. My heart starts to beat faster...Going on the second loop...lots of mud, so much mud that they have boards down over the puddles and they are slippery...easy does it, don't wipe out! Back down another hill, only to climb another. Hard to believe that this kind of "elevation" is so close to home! LOL! As I am going down hill I look across the field and see Jason. I am so happy for him that he is doing awesome, yet I have a hint of pissed-offness in me. I know that isn't a word but it sounds kind of cool! I finish strong up the last hill before the finish line...my time is 57:02 which puts my pace at 9:09. Not bad for a trail run. Jason finished just a couple minutes before me, I am so proud of him! Although a bit irritated by a comment made on the way home when I was profusely sweating, he was cold and he made the comment that he's not since he has been done for so long. I did call him an ass at the time, but when I look back at this and remember the look on his face and the smirk he had was worth it no matter how much it bugged me! I will never forget that look. It was truly priceless!
So I was hoping to post a really cool family pic from the marathon but that pic still has not taken place...race day, nobody would cooperate for me and the kids and I have not yet bothered dad to take our pic with our shirts and medals. Part of me feels like I am not really into it and half way don't care since it is not a medal I feel I have earned, but rather one that was given to me out of merely finishing. I know that is the point, but it is all a mind game I play with myself. I should maybe go in and get diagnosed for whatever it is I have! LOL! Vicky, if you read this, maybe you can analyze me! LOL!
So, I have only run a couple times in the last couple weeks. I ended up going to the chiropractor last week and as he was stretching out my lower back before manipulation, you could actually hear my SI joints rubbing together. And he has the nerve to ask me "do you feel that?" I was about through the roof and could not only feel it, but hear it too! So, I am now an ibuprofen/aspirin taker and have gone through a bottle+ in about 4 days...sad but true. I feel this is my main source of depression as I am not able to fully function to do what I love to do most - RUN! I am going back to the chiropractor tomorrow and hope that this will pass. My SI joint better just stay in place and not wake me any longer during the night, hurting and throbbing. And I hope to be able to not feel pain with every step I take...I have been doing quite a bit of bike riding but it just isn't the same...I want to RUN!
On that note, I want to say thank you to Katie for picking up the kids and getting them to the rink when Jason and I ran the race that Saturday. Thanks for all you do!
I also was very glad to be able to see Becky again this past weekend! Two days in a row even! Thank you to you and Blaine for letting me borrow your ladder. I so appreciate it!
I could not ever ask for better friends! Thanks to all of you who listen to me and put up with me! I don't know what I'd do without you.
For now...I will try to keep smiling and soon be running!
Some pictures I wanted to share as well...
Rick so patiently getting the kids lined up for their photo shoot with Team Vicky!!
Our great group of kids that was Team Vicky!
Colton looking up to mom....she IS amazing!
The girls gang...Maggie, Tessa, & Madelynn. Catching some sun before going back into the cold rink.
Parker & Vicky. He is always so thoughtful and wants to be with Vicky. He has been enjoying seeing her blog and both of us were very happy to hear the good news today!
Coach Krier, time for another one?
A Team Vicky Victory! Couldn't have been any other way! Way to go!!!
And Parker was very happy that Vicky will be the keeper of the trophy.
Madelynn and her favorite little man, Andrew.
Where have I been? I feel as though I have been falling into a deep, dark, black hole and cannot see the light to get out. I can't breathe and I feel as though it will never end and there is no way out.
After the Fargo Marathon this year, I was so disappointed in myself. I tried to put up a front that I would get over it and not everything goes right on the day you want it to. I feel as though I could pull out any excuse in the book, but it just comes down to the fact that I failed myself and I feel as if I failed Vicky. This race was about her and now I am still feeling selfish that I am still making it about me and the goal that I had set for myself that I didn't achieve. How ashamed am I? What could I have done differently? How much harder should I have trained? How many more miles a week should I have ran? Should I have done speed sessions and more tempo runs? The questions keep coming and coming without resolve...I digress....
A couple weeks ago I ran the Trail Run that was held at the Regional Science Center. I thought it would be a fun relaxing run as it was in the morning when the air is cool and crisp with a little bit of dew on the blades of grass. Deep breath and not even a hint of nervousness. As I line up with Jason I ask if he wants to run with me and the answer is no....Go! and the 10K has begun. I start out slow as I just wanted to take my time a little and have some fun, that and since it was a trail run, the terrain is obviously uneven and makes for an interesting race. My main focus at the start is to not turn an ankle! As I get out to the first clearing, I see Jason way out ahead of me and the competitiveness in me starts running faster. The sun is now out and it is getting really hot when in the open field. My pace increases. I go back into the woods and feel a chill as the temperature changes significantly. I'm sweating and have the goose bumps. I feel a rush of adrenaline. My heart starts to beat faster...Going on the second loop...lots of mud, so much mud that they have boards down over the puddles and they are slippery...easy does it, don't wipe out! Back down another hill, only to climb another. Hard to believe that this kind of "elevation" is so close to home! LOL! As I am going down hill I look across the field and see Jason. I am so happy for him that he is doing awesome, yet I have a hint of pissed-offness in me. I know that isn't a word but it sounds kind of cool! I finish strong up the last hill before the finish line...my time is 57:02 which puts my pace at 9:09. Not bad for a trail run. Jason finished just a couple minutes before me, I am so proud of him! Although a bit irritated by a comment made on the way home when I was profusely sweating, he was cold and he made the comment that he's not since he has been done for so long. I did call him an ass at the time, but when I look back at this and remember the look on his face and the smirk he had was worth it no matter how much it bugged me! I will never forget that look. It was truly priceless!
So I was hoping to post a really cool family pic from the marathon but that pic still has not taken place...race day, nobody would cooperate for me and the kids and I have not yet bothered dad to take our pic with our shirts and medals. Part of me feels like I am not really into it and half way don't care since it is not a medal I feel I have earned, but rather one that was given to me out of merely finishing. I know that is the point, but it is all a mind game I play with myself. I should maybe go in and get diagnosed for whatever it is I have! LOL! Vicky, if you read this, maybe you can analyze me! LOL!
So, I have only run a couple times in the last couple weeks. I ended up going to the chiropractor last week and as he was stretching out my lower back before manipulation, you could actually hear my SI joints rubbing together. And he has the nerve to ask me "do you feel that?" I was about through the roof and could not only feel it, but hear it too! So, I am now an ibuprofen/aspirin taker and have gone through a bottle+ in about 4 days...sad but true. I feel this is my main source of depression as I am not able to fully function to do what I love to do most - RUN! I am going back to the chiropractor tomorrow and hope that this will pass. My SI joint better just stay in place and not wake me any longer during the night, hurting and throbbing. And I hope to be able to not feel pain with every step I take...I have been doing quite a bit of bike riding but it just isn't the same...I want to RUN!
On that note, I want to say thank you to Katie for picking up the kids and getting them to the rink when Jason and I ran the race that Saturday. Thanks for all you do!
I also was very glad to be able to see Becky again this past weekend! Two days in a row even! Thank you to you and Blaine for letting me borrow your ladder. I so appreciate it!
I could not ever ask for better friends! Thanks to all of you who listen to me and put up with me! I don't know what I'd do without you.
For now...I will try to keep smiling and soon be running!
Some pictures I wanted to share as well...
Coach Krier, time for another one?
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